A beautiful mind

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

The long and windy road

The cold wind brushed against my cheeks,
forcing me to squint my eyes before the rain made me flipped on my tinted visor on the helmet.
Just so I would have a clearer view of the road to complete the safe journey home.

I was soaked as I rode in the rain. It had been a cooling day. And I reckoned quality time spent in school. I felt liberated physically from work, but so occupied in the mind. Instead of thinking about stuff about myself. I've been wondering the lives of the others.

Happy times spent with some people BBQing last night. Playing some Monday, tuesday and arm wrestling, elephant spinning. We thought we'd not have enough food but turns out we had more than enough! It was quite a merry event, preparing the food together, watching dvd, swinging around. It was wonderful. Friends play such a huge part in our lives. Even if you cannot find the perfect soul mate. A group of fun loving friends is just as equivalent. I feel for them.

Sometimes I'd feel so bad when I realised I slighted some people unknowingly. I really dont mean it. Even when I walk past without saying Hi. Sometimes, I just cant express myself enough with the appropriate words and I skipped expressing them. As time goes by, it became a habbit. The face ran out of emotions and the heart turned stone cold. What came out of the mouth doesnt match what the heart meant anymore.
I'm worried someday I'd leave this world without them knowing how I felt about them.

TAURUS - The Enduring One (April 20 - May 20)
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings that are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard -- passionate. Expresses themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined.. Indulges themselves often

I wonder what life has in store for me. I feel lagged. In the sense that I'm falling behind what I should be doing. I have a mission. I'm driven by it. Its like reading a book and having to resist the temptation to flip to the end of the book, to find out what the ending would be.
I hope it'd be a happy one.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

I'm still alive!

'A woman's bra which in an emergency can double as a pair of gas masks has won one of the awards handed out at the prestigious Harvard University for the year's most eccentric research.'

(http://news.sg.msn.com/oddities/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3624365)

HAHAH! The asians knew the bra could be used as gas mask long ago! Just that the idea wasnt coupled with action. =P

Mooncake festival was great as I had more than 5 boxes of mooncakes. There were the traditional mooncakes, the 'Bing pi' ones, and the ones which had chocolates in them. Of cos not missing the durian ones.

School's getting rather boring. I feel stifled. I wish to take up guitar and drawing. I've been thinking alot about Singaporeans and Foreigners. I feel like a Robot made to go through those programming to suit what SINGAPORE needs. This detached us from our 'brains', stifling creativity. As compared to the 'Ang Moh' culture where the kids CHOOSE what they wanna become and how their parents would support them wholeheartedly. In my time, people would discourage teens going the 'star route' But we can clearly see the shift in culture now as there're probably more TV stars than audience on the road now, due to programs such as 'Sg Idol', 'Campus Superstar' etc... I think Singaporeans seldom laugh. Even when we do, we don do it from our heart. Subconsciously, theres something on our mind. I call it constant pressure. Compared to those smiles on those ang mohs' faces. You can imagine how the Caucasians sincerely laugh from their heart right? We're like little sea monkeys produced to play around on this island. Laugh at lame jokes to take a short break from the harsh reality. To talk about non constructive stuff, bimbotic gossips, timetables and emoing all day long, refusing to grow up. How I wish they could grow up. It's so hard to find someone who speaks with intelligence.

Seriously, If you could have all the money you need, to spend your last day on earth in Singapore. What would you do? Or rather, what COULD you do?

Ps: I realised recently Alan linked me from his blog. Hello Alan, Kindly drop linking me when u see this cos I'm feeling slightly naked right now. =P THANKS!