A beautiful mind

Sunday, August 2, 2009

You are not who you think you are.

Gone are the days where 'those who usually know keep quiet'. Instead, these days, if you don speak up, you're either labeled ignorant or dumb. Gone are the days where ' Man of few words know the most' But ' those who talk big without reservation, attracts the most attention' now. Youngsters are probably blinded by verbal promises instead of actions. And we can clearly see the difference in thinking and values between us and the younger generation these days as it becomes more apparent. Life these days are probably about being emotional, high tea and partying. Rather than our generation where work, money and gf/bf. Thou I reckon there must be more to these. Ok, all these are not very relevant to what I'm about to blog. =D

Many probably think that I'm 'dao', being a man of few words AT TIMES. Or callous and cold blooded other times as an insensitive man..Even I myself agree sometimes. And I cant dismiss people's impression of me or their thinking.

Sometimes, we say things like, what am I acting like this today? This is not the usual me. I'm not like this.
In my opinion, we all have different sides of emotions, behaviour. And we probably surprise ourselves sometimes by the way we act. But it is still part of us and we shouldnt deny it. Even when we feel emotional, or fear, we shouldnt run away from them and try to be happy ONLY. These are our emotions, and we probably should embrace them. They deserve a fair share in our lives as 'happiness'. Note that this include sadness =).

As most of you should have know by now. I've been working. And my day job is... Not sure if I can reveal it. But it includes dealing with claims. For eg, when you get injured at work, u write in claims with your documents. I'll send in for processing and return a cheque if you're entitled for compensation. Or when you get sick, or go to the clinic blah blah u need to claim for compensation. Or hospitalisation and stuff, aye, you know what I'm talking about.

So, dealing with these actually make me kinda depressed actually. Seriously! To a great extent. When I see the disease that people contracted,the enormous hospitalisation bill they incurred I could feel how helpless and vulnerable humans actually are. I would feel really grieved as I processed the document with a heavy heart. I dread getting old and weak. Not to mention losing my hair, unable to walk/run. The pain in my knees. The disease I'd contract. The unforeseen/unpredictable future. It makes me health conscious. Not only these, the traffic accidents that happened. Especially bike accidents which I could relate closely. I'd imagine how sorrowful it was for their family at that time. I recently saw a claim of a young widow in her twenties claiming for death compensation for her dead spouse. It was extremely disturbing.

This reminded me how emotionally rich I am on the inside. The rich pool of emotions inside me have always been waiting to pour out despite how cold and stolid I appear to be. It corrected my thinking that I've got past the stage where life, death, sickness and being old and feeble do not matter anymore. It made me realised I'm actually not as much of a cold blooded person as I tot I was as I continue to wonder our purposes in life.

Perhaps the younger generation are more exposed to these. I mean how unpredictable life is, as people their age passed on maybe in the army during training, runs, exercise, or even diseases these days such as SARS, H1N1, or perhaps in air crashes which happens so frequently these days. It may be the reason why they're partying so hard, living life like theres no tomorrow as they realise how fragile humans actually are. They dont purchase policies like how the older generation used to. Lets not say the 3 or 4 policies which our parents bought. We should be surprised if they actually buy 1 for themselves. Again, this may be due to parents who have already bought insurance for them. Or the immunity/disinterest in insurance due to many of their peers who have turn into insurance agents compared to the past where people are so interested to find out more about insurance as there were only few agents.

As I'm writing this, I do recognise that there are people who notice the fragility and vulnerability in life like I do and hence purchases policies and hence explains the existence of the market. In fact, it is getting bigger with other players coming in such as Manulife, and others.

Ok I know I'm digressing alot here and there, going round and round about cultures, values, perceptions of life, insurance, accidents, incoherent, messy written with poor english and sentence structure. But what I really wanna say here is in paragraph 6 as what the title suggested. =D HAHAH!